It was a nice couple of weeks

So I met this amazing woman while working one day.  I had a moment of "hey, why not take a chance?" and I did.  I started talking to this woman and over the coarse of the past couple of weeks, we would text to each other, have long email conversations and at one point we were calling each other just to talk.  

That was the downfall for me.  I took things too far and I know that but I couldn't help it.  I thought she was cool to talk to, I respect what is going on in her life and what she is going to be doing. I wanted to get to know her better and maybe go out and stuff like that.  She didn't.  She wanted a friend and I became a jackass.  I came on too strong and now I'm back to being me.  The good thing is that I get to go away for the week because of work.  Just me in a different city in a different time zone.  

I hope that things will change.  I hate this feeling of being alone.  

my phone

rang 2 times today.
one time was my boss, one time was my mom.
i should get rid of it cause i don't really need it.
solitude
any one need some?
come september, 1/2 year it will be
good thing i got the books
i try optimism every day, it is not easy to do
each week makes it harder